Insights
of a mid-20 something
There is a beauty in the madness of all life, most of all, in our own. When we enter points that we would’ve deemed questionable, at best, in our 21 year old head, we can better grasp the reason why we’ve been destined to these points that may be less than we endear. At least in my own head, I can point to things but ultimately, they would’ve made me less than I am today in other ways. So it serves little purpose to me to reflect.
Though I can admit that I’ve been less than calculated since 2019, I have grown into something that I wanted most then, that was not monetary, and doing so naturally, which brings more happiness than any material thing could bring.
I remember having a strong time even in 2021, which was aligned with monetary gain, but the sacrifices I would’ve had to make didn’t align with what I wanted in the long term. Even that itself has been a battle but it’s what makes sense to my desires in non-material happiness, which will always weigh more than a Ferrari.
When we’re too attached to one thing or another, we can become a race horse, hardly realizing that we’re being jockeyed by someone who would replace us with another horse without hesitance. If you want that, then keep winning races. Don’t get wiped.
The main hole I experienced, time and time again, when willing to become a race horse, for the right organization, was being met with an asshole jockey. Don’t let assholes who aren’t focused on winning take advantage of you in any race. Buck em’ off.
Now that I’m mid 20 something and unemployable, I spend a lot of time moving at my own pace. This awards me many benefits, the primary being that I am not being ridden, at least not by more than my 🍯.
The point is, don’t be so dead set on one path that you miss taking advantage of life in other areas, which we often pass. There are many skills, hobbies, activities to participate in to boast our personal happiness. A dollar does not define more than the expansion of your dreams into reality.
I advise choosing the path that drives your dreams and doing so while carrying a strong personality. This includes having great hobbies to do with others, and taking time to be in nature, doing things that push you out of being alone.
Work is work. Don’t be defined by just working. You can mesh things in better when you’re not jockeyed. If your path leads you to that, all the power to you.
My ideas of who and what I was going to become from 19 - 21 - 23 - and beyond that veil, have been shifting. I’m not saying that I’ve been bouncing around like a pinball, with no aim at all. . . I’m saying, things evolve with time…
More than anything, time has developed me. Choosing to say no to things that the younger me would’ve wasted 6 months to 2 years doing. Being able to run through ideas for the next 15 - 30 years of life, rather than being short minded, has enhanced purpose within. There’s a better foundation to build taller.
What I’m trying to say to my younger me, as that’s trending, is take slightly bigger risk and move into bigger ideas early. Really, i’d probably say ‘if you just take things as they are, you’ll be guided to where you want to go, in joy the present’. This would be sage advice for younger me to gain a better awareness of stress and its effects.
Don’t hold onto it, actively release it. Find ways to remove tension in the body and keep a long term mindset on how you want to be physically, in all areas.
Your 20’s prepare you for strong leadership, which is required of you if you intend to build magnificence into the fabrics of your communities/industry. Every experience can be an opportunity for growth, even if it doesn’t seem so in the moment.
Take time to process things as they present themselves, the more you build the habit of intake, decision, action/output, the more you can expand your purest self into your environment. It’s also how you’ll learn which environments to avoid, which, if they’re unreceptive of your expansion, then it’s important to find the places that will let you be received.
what I thought I could do 5 years ago versus now are many zeros apart… let time and openness bring you what you ultimately desire in the grand scheme of life.
I still contemplate if that’s where I want to take things, but the way my environment is set up, they’re saying go get it.
It’s hard to not want to take things to the moon with concepts that wouldn’t had presented themselves to me if I didn’t go the way I have been throughout the years.
With the weight seeming heavier than ever with the ideas that are teeming from the seams of my own brain fabric, I want to encourage you to keep pushing toward the right things, don’t let the ideas you have now be those that define you. Being open will always lead you to new ideas. Be expansive and keep the things alive that shine. Don’t get flash banged in the process of it all, keep your eyesight 20/20.
